i take you for granted
i drink your wine
i get lost in your words
and romanticize your vision
you’ve always had your way
with me
always
had your way with me
inducing my movements
a thick hypnosis
slurring my speech
disrupting my focus
talking me to sleep with your
saccharine kisses
injecting me
with
insulin
why do i wallow
in the wonder of your past tense
why do i melt
in the sun i cannot see
why do i why do i
why do i why
the glare of my stance
blinding my eyes
fleshing me out
with your slow pulling string
you are the beast
that i wrestle with—
lose to
fawn over
day dream
hold breath
talk through
settle down
choke on
break neck
sit down
talk out
pacify
pacify
a passive death
where is the middle man—
will i find him again?