thinning
like the muscle
in my knees
used to one motion
two speeds
slow and fast
these days
the days are slow
thinning
like the patience
that i never had
still coming off
short
abrupt
petulant
biting
no answer is right
all sayings are stupid
good luck getting past
thinning
like the snap
that’s been screw loose
for a while now
drivers
pedestrians
friends
family
neighbors
news
history
the cliff jump future
a landing with no telling
thinning
like the breath
that’s inhaling to my brain
somehow this oxygen
doesn’t feel like oxygen
eyes mid-lined—flat-lined
stupor sized—stupefied
i dream
of sleeping
lying awake
for hours
wishing i
was dreaming
where has the wanting gone…
where has desire left…
where has ambition strayed…
where…
where am i now…
where will i ever be…