i wonder
if i will find another
place that feels
like home
fogging up my visions
projecting all my thoughts
opening its misty prism
when i feel free
when i realize
you’re the only one
i’ve ever truly been
married to
divorced from
cordial with
when we get together
lay up with
rest in
finger rolls
it reminds me
of my parents
the parents of my friends
who severed ties when
time was up
but slowly, like gravity
deflated balloons
coming down to speak again
day by day
amends
i don’t love you all the time
but angst, impatience
expectations
wither like seasons;
spring in the rain
cherry blossoms in bloom
fall;
summer begins
bye bye honeymoon
each time we meet again
i notice
something different
about you
a new shade
a new thing
a new…—
but your eyes are the same
reflections in the union
ripples in the sound
your fields of green
pastures of plenty
your volatility
calming
will you
be here
if all else fails;
will you
be a safety net;
will you
always have your name;
be the constant;
will you