Clear the cotton balls out of your ears
to find that your hearing is much better
than the deaf you’re comfortable being
where drums resound much beyond
the sculpture that’s been blocking out the bullshit
not confronting the culprit (sideways mugshot)
the ability to listen and reason, long passed over
an unavoidable odor issuing from the
lack of waves—ignorant no longer
Unpack the union that was cemented in stone
incapable of cutting, an abyss full of tears
that you never got to, let harden and solidify
the sword that was stuck now a halloween costume
freak show in your mirror but invisible to others
flame throwing tools, your 10,000 hours
to reverse the damage that procrastination left you
a growing problem—just a problem—nothing more–your problem
the only solution currently—drill a hold in the core
Take two steps back and learn to restrain
examine your hands and the shape they’ve created
find that your breath had hiccuped its breathing
ceased to keep learning, resorted to fighting
a fist, two fists, aiming for tension
reads to fly and beyond apprehension
balled up and loaded, a weapon physique
with bullets as knuckles, a fingerless freak
look at the ten you forgot that you had
Wonder why you’re walking so so far ahead and
acknowledge your body floating across
the track meet surface foreign to touch
on the road to recovery with no lower body
the metaphor is: you’ve even going to fast
walked without feet, legs, thighs and calves
ran 100 meters, forgot to run laps
vanishing finish lines with no metrics attached
your feet in the distance—take better care
Visit the doctor, sit down and listen;
stay still through the cat scan, it’ll be over soon
recover the vitals, resolve all the wounds
the fractures and breaks and the ruptures and tears
will heal over time;
they look so soft, bones split like splinters
inflated lungs show grey underneath you
no pills or prescriptions to remedy an x-ray
relief of the mind, salvation of the soul
Give yourself up and let the light shine through
relinquish the darkness and the past drama whirlpools
syringe the IV and get better with fluids
lay down with your eyes closed, lie flat on your back
allowing your body to rise through the pull of change
a full body epiphany
an update in motion, alteration of pace
one life to live, only one life to chase
your dreams